every little things counts

i have been treated like a loser all the times(since the new semester started).i dont know how to speak so that they will treat me with respect. they just so full of themselves.(aku rase aku berlagak lak).. they treat me as i`m invisible, lonely, loser, stupid. i do have temper but i can control it as long as they know how to behave. i do have things they did that i cant stand and it is bcoz they arent respect me. they do what they want, not consider me. sometimes they act accordingly. sometimes i laugh with them if d talk involves somethng me and fun but to talk to me about other things as friends always do?no. they just leave me behind and its sad when ppl u recognized as your friend dont feel the same way. i expect too much. i can feel they are not sincere with me even though we hav been friends or mybe just colleagues for 4 years now. i can feel they are fake. i`m not smooth talking person as they are, so that maybe one of the reason ppl cant be friendly with me.....they say things brutally about others, in fact, the things are them. how can they pangai like that. i deeply dont get it at all. they said when i act i should consider others, but then, dont they realize what they had been saying? i think ppl are dumb .so,tell me how i need to change myself so that i can fit them or just tell me what i need to do....
i really dont know. i truly am.